so much shouting, so much laughter

where to begin...i was putting off writing it down in here because I was afraid to believe it was true.

JAVIER IS GETTING DIVORCED!!!!!!!!!! finally, finally, finally..

I know that many people who see this will see me as a homewrecker and a slew of other bad names. but no one knows the situation. so relax. he has been seperated for a LONG time. now it has finally become official. i am free to love him, free to be with him, to enjoy him, to relish the moments and the kisses and the companionship and the love. i am free.

since the papers were filed he has been coming over and staying weekends with us and i can only describe it a bliss. sure we get in little arguments but mostly... its awesome. we are best friends and parents to the sweetest angel of a baby girl and we truly enjoy each others company. when we argue it is so mature and i tell him why im upset and then i get over it. there is no drama. we are both so laid back and easy going and honestly this is my definition of a perfect relationship!

OK..ill move on...

Yesterday Olivia and Billy and Luke came over and we all went swimming. Javier BBQ'd burgers and we had a very pleasant lunch and swim time. Arabella is so stinkin adorable. She loves the pool and just grunts and growls when shes happy with a big smile on her face! I got so fried!! But it was great. I need to just mention that my mom and olivia have always been with men who are assholes and they never want to do anything fun and when they do it is miserable because they are assholes. but javier is so nice and sweet and chill that he is so much fun to be with and i can tell my mom and sister love him and are jealous and i am so proud to be with such a great man!